Riding the Bench

I can’t quite capture in words what I feel when I have to sit out in training because of an injury. I still show up though, and I think people don’t realize how hard it is to do that.

I would be lying if I called it frustration. Sometimes it’s just plain anger. I don’t want to speak on the subject much more because it’s just ugly. Belive me, you think running intervals and hard sparring is tough… NO. That’s the “tough” that is extremely fun. The hardest challenge is sitting, dry, fat, and tired on the sidelines watching, day after day after day with a dull persistent ache in your shoulder (or whatever other body part has got you out and off the mat).

Anyway, I did about 200 uchikomi that included all the basics. Was sidelined in the second half of practice. I felt like I could definitely do fits, but people seemed to be insistent on throws, so I had to sit out. A bit dissapointed about that. I did one randori session against Joan (40 pounds lighter than me) very lightly going for a few pick ups. It felt pretty good.

Still at the end, I felt very beaten emotionally. It’s really a mild form of suffering that drains all my energy. It was tough to come home, and start up work again over coffee. I usually really enjoy working on Friday night, but tonight even that was tough.

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  1. Keith

    I hear you on this one, not just now but previous injuries prevented me from about a year of sports it was the most mentally painful time of my life. Ironically though I developed incredible balance on one foot though, because I had a badly broken ankle with about a whole leg cast for over 8 weeks, and after that healed I’d like to say I came right back stronger but I didn’t. My leg looked like a tooth pick but after lots of physical therapy I returned full stride and moved on. Since then I try not to take anything for granted. I could quote a few light at the end lines or joy wouldn’t feel good if it wasn’t for pain but there’s no doubt injuries suck no question about it just be smart about it.

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