stood over the toilet
in the women's bathroom
and memories came rushing out

from the time of freshman dorms
to the shared mistakes
of old age

and the sudden urge to call
a girl i can recall with a smile
overtook me

the words i didn't have
didn't leave my mouth.
i was trying to be quiet.

walked home to
'against the wind'
and finished the night
with sit-ups and nietzsche