i will not murder you
but father you must cease to speak my name
i will not murder you
but mother you must never mention waste
i will not murder you
but brother do forgive my sincere hate
i will not murder you
but circumstance prevails over intent

i will not murder you
for father you taught me how to tie a shoe
i will not murder you
for mother you made sweetness sweeter in a taste
i will not murder you
for brother your toughness taught me haste
i will not murder you
despite the harsh contradictions of my youth

i will not murder you
there aren't enough days left father
i will not murder you
there aren't enough bottles left mother
i will not murder you
though there is yellow wallpaper in my eyes
i will not murder you
but red, for years, will cover my face

i will not murder you
because i am you father
i will not murder you
because i love you mother
i will not murder you
because i know you brother
i will not murder you
because it is too late