leaning, almost inclined to find comfort
in being twice the weight of a girl
who i am destined to spend half my time taking apart
starting between her perfect legs, and ending at her vapid objectivist heart

multiple parts of my body are sore each evening
for different reasons with different ideas for numbing the pain
i stand in the hot shower waiting for the hour to expand
but i have emails left to send
and a thesis to defend
and a thesis to defend