I competed at one the The Good Fight BJJ tournaments today. I went 4 and 2, losing to the same guy twice in the finals of my weight division and the absolute. That adds up to two silver medals.
Below is a picture of me being not very happy about receiving one of those silver medals. A positive way to look at my performance is to say that no one scored points on me the entire tournament (my losses were by submission), and I stayed on top the entire time. However, how I actually feel is that I lacked confidence on the feet and in passing guard, letting my opponent dictate how the match went. Itâ€™s good to be patient, but I wish I open up a lot more.
Overall, it was a good experience.
It certainly feels like I donâ€™t compete enough. I put too much pressure on myself to win, and as a result sometimes I donâ€™t get the necessary quantity of competition matches required to gain comfort with the level of intensity that is characteristic of competition.
Iâ€™m hesitant to shoot in. Iâ€™m hesitant to pass the way I know I should, and the way I have many times before. Why? Because I donâ€™t want to take the risk. But taking risks is part of learning and is an essential requisite of gaining confidence in the power of technique. For example, I am only now gaining confidence in the knee-cut pass that has for the longest time felt very vulnerable to me. I just didnâ€™t believe it could work, even though it kept working over and over.
This post is already way to longâ€¦ There are three competitions in August, but for the rest of July (as of now) thereâ€™s nothing! The last several tournaments have revealed a few problems in my game, so July is all about fixing those problems!