The Isolating Experience of Reading

experience-of-finishing-a-bookThe image to the left made me chuckle. I can certainly relate to the experience. As a person who probably reads about 100+ times more words than I speak, I live a lot of my life on the pages of a book.

For example, I recently read a few books related to Nazi Germany and World War II, and had to resist bringing those topics up in conversation with friends and colleagues. I lived in that world (via imagination) for several months, and was profoundly moved by the stories of evil, weakness, heroism, etc.

I think reading is similar to traveling in that, for example, it’s a little douchy to say “When I visited Chichen Itza last year, I was amazed at the depth of civilization that existed in North America over a thousand years ago.” There is a fascinating discussion there, but it might drown in the fact that most people don’t know what or where Chichen Itza is, nor do they need to in order to have an interesting conversation with me about the rise and fall of great societies in history.

The challenge of “traveling” through books is to take from those travels what I can, but return back and live fully in the present day reality.

Kindle and the Good Old Days of Paper Books

old-bookI read about 30+ history, literature, or philosophy books in 2012, all of which I read on a Kindle. I currently own and use the latest version (Kindle Paperwhite). In the following comments I refer to a “Kindle” but really I mean any ereader. Kindle is just the only one I have experience using. I’m sure they are all similar more or less.

From day one, my brain immediately accepted the reality of this new medium. Why? It’s more convenient. Every pragmatic aspect of the reading experience is better on an ereader, but there are other things to consider…

Practical Reasons to Go with Kindle

  • I can highlight and take lengthy notes much easier (no long constrained by the size of the margin).
  • Once I’m done reading a book, I have a nice list of organized notes that are linked to the highlights in the book. I have access to these notes not just on the Kindle but online and all Kindle apps I install on any device.
  • I can carry hundreds of books in my pocket.
  • Kindle is much easier to hold than a book. This doesn’t come into play when I’m reading at my desk, but if I’m reading while on public transit or just laying in my bed, you’d be surprised how nice it is not to have to think about an arm going numb or tired. I can fully get lost in the reading for hours.

Emotional Reasons to Go with Kindle

  • The amount of text per Kindle page is less than the usual paper book page, so I always feel like I’m reading at incredible speeds. The “turning” of the page is somehow an intoxicating experience.
  • This will sound ridiculous, but on my old Kindle, where the turning of the page was done by pressing a button instead of pressing on the touchscreen, the sound of the button click was very addictive. I would compare it to something like getting reward points in an Xbox 360 video game. That’s the only reason I don’t like the new Paperwhite that’s touchscreen based. It works well, but doesn’t have that “button click” response feel.

Conceptual Reasons to Go with Kindle

Ereader technology is improving dramatically every year. The price is coming down. Sales of ebooks are skyrocketing to where they’ve overtaken their hardcover and paperback counterparts. That means incentive grows for publishers to improve the ebook experience. This is the future, and we have to get used to it. In the long term, it’s always easier to live life embracing change instead of resisting change.

Emotional Reasons NOT to Go with Kindle

I still have all of these concerns today, but the feeling fades slowly day by day (it almost sounds as if I’m talking about grieving a loss of a friend):

  • The feel of paper, while nothing special in an objective sense, has been associated with great life-changing books in my mind. So there is a definite Pavlovian response of an motivating intellectual spark every time I touch or turn a paper page.
  • Trophies. Someone brought this up to me recently, and I didn’t realize how true it is. I love the feeling of finishing a book and putting it up on a bookshelf much like people might hang up a medal after winning a sporting event. I really am proud of “conquering” these little challenges. Every once in a while I notice this or that book on the bookshelf and smile from the memories of life when that particular book was a central part of my daily life.

 

Read More, Write Less. Listen More, Speak Less.

glass-bead-gameI try to follow a general rule of reading a lot more than I write, and listening a lot more than I speak. With everything I do, it’s tempting to fall into the practice of write-only output in work and every-day life. The more I write, the more a momentum builds up. Bottom line is it’s pretty damn easy to eject your brain stew into the ether. Once the flood gates open, the hard process of reading, re-reading, struggling to understand becomes that much less appealing.

I guess if my first thought on the subject is a generic positive one, I’ll voice it naturally and let it fade along with comments about the weather and the latest political scandal in the news. But if I’m interesting in presenting a counter-intuitive idea or one that contradicts a popular view, the hard work of quietly drudging through the articles and books on the subject has to get done.

On the other hand, I’m also fearful of falling into the bin where the introverts hide from the fluorescent light of the world. Too much learning and too much listening can be just as counter-productive as the other extreme. That’s really the main reason I keep this blog, so that I open the valve to my brain at least for a few minutes a day. The goal is to practice mapping the thing that’s in my brain to the thing that’s on the page. The more I do it, the more I realize how much I suck at it. It’s not easy, and every attempt humbles me. It’s like trying to pick up a girl when I’m intoxicated. Whatever comes out of my mouth will not be Shakespeare. At best, I can smile, and shoot for a mumbling Hemingway or Hunter S Thompson.

I’ve always found it unfortunate that some of the most interesting and brilliant people I know do no have any interest in speaking to the world. No facebook, no blog, and barely more than a phone and a work email. They love learning, but are uncomfortable with exposing their opinions and views to the outside world.

Sometimes the quietest people at the party are the ones I want to talk to. And by “party” I mean seven eleven, and by “quietest people” I mean the introspective angry hobo glaring spitefully at the passing cops.

Birthday Reading List

Last two years on my birthday I asked for people’s recommendations for books and movies that had an impact on their life. I read about 3-5 books a month, and have read many of the recommendations. So I thought I would go to the well one more time ;-)

If you can recommend a book or movie that you liked and think I have not read or seen it, please write it here or on facebook. I really appreciate it. The amount of books out there is overwhelming so it’s nice to have smart friends that can help guide my learning.

Here are several of the books that I was recommended last year and I remember reading (and liking) recently off the top of my head:

It seems like every page I read fills me with wonder and awe over how little I know. Sometimes it’s inspiring, sometimes it’s depressing, but it’s always worth a try.

UPDATE: The following is an alphabetical list of some of the book recommendations my facebook buddies sent my way (I’m slowly adding them here to prevent the ephemeral facebook stream from swallowing them whole).

Read About Ideas With Which You Disagree

Main point: Learn constantly, with an open mind, and consider the possibility that you might be wrong about things you’ve believed for a day, a year, or your whole life.

At any given point in time, I have a well-defined opinion on any one specific topic (assuming I’ve considered it for at least a little bit). Sometimes the opinion is firm, sometimes it’s shaky, sometimes it’s well-thought-out, and sometimes it based on a couple of seconds of intuition and common sense reasoning. But no matter where I stand, and how I arrive there, I try to keep an open mind. I try to imagine that there is a possibility that I may be wrong even about the ideas that I’ve studied for years. “Try” is the key word here, because admitting to yourself you’re wrong is not easy, and I often fail, because like most people I can be stubborn and irrational.

Anyway, what I find particularly fascinating, is people unwillingness to read about ideas with which they disagree. People who believe in the idea that government can do a lot of good seem to be unwilling to read literature on anarcho-capitalism, objectivism, libertarianism, or classical liberalism.

Politics, religion, economics, philosophy, psychology, sociology, etc are all fields full of “camps”. And if you are in one camp, it somehow becomes difficult to step outside that camp in a genuine attempt to learn and consider alternatives.

I think it’s very important to read not just the opinions similar to your own but also to read those you disagree with. Furthermore, I think it’s important to read extremist literature that has at one time (if not currently) garnered a significant following. For example, I just recently read the second volume of Mein Kampf (Hitler’s manifesto on the ideology behind the National Socialist movement). This book, and any literature involving Hitler, is very difficult for me to read, because of how much of my family and friends are Jewish and have Holocaust victims and survivors in their family’s story. But it’s important for me to read and think about ideas that have lead to so much hatred, murder, and destruction, and that were followed to whatever degree at one time by millions of people. I cannot simply put that part of history in a cardboard box, fill it with tears and anger, and leave it in the attic. I have to consider it often, in order to gain a better understanding of us as individuals, us as a nation, and us as a society.

Some Practical Suggestions from Around the Web

There are a lot of different resources on the web that help you explore opinions you disagree with. After writing this blog post I googled around and found an excellent blog post on how to read books you disagree with. The three suggestions that blog post makes is:

  1. Cycling: Read one “on” (where you disagree with the majority of ideas in it) and one “off” (where you agree with the majority of ideas in it).
  2. Fringe Books: Not sure what this one means exactly, but I think he means picks books that are full of ideas about which you are uncertain or don’t know enough, and so statistically you will agree with some parts and disagree with other parts.
  3. Look for Quality, Not Perspective: This is really the best advice, and one that I have always tried to follow. The world of books is bigger than anyone can read in a thousand lifetimes, so it’s always wise to pick the best representatives of its ilk.

Letting Go Of Books That Changed My Life

I can’t explain why, and it’s strange to admit in words, but I have a close relationship with certain books. There’s about 100 of them that I’ve read at some point in my teens and early twenties. They now sit on my shelves collecting dust, and today, I have tasked myself with throwing them out (or rather, donating them).

In a cold logical sense, I don’t need them anymore. I have all of them in ebook form on my Kindle. But even if I didn’t, I already read them (several times in many cases). If I’m honest with myself, it’s clear that I will most likely never open them again. There are too many other amazing books out there that I still haven’t read.

Most of these books fall into the category of “philosophical fiction”, but are more commonly referred to as “modern classics”. They affected me more than almost any people or events (except for a few close friends and family members), and are very much responsible for the development of my “world view”.

I remember reading The Plague and struggling to breath over the realization that perhaps there is no meaning at all to suffering, to joy, to life in general. As I put it down into words now, it all sounds so dramatic. But it wasn’t dramatic. It was quiet, and it was subtle. It wore me out like a long run does, and in the same way, left me feeling happy to be alive in the most genuine way. It made me think. It made me ask questions that I will probably never find good answers to. It set me off on a lifelong journey of learning.

So how can I throw out such good old friends of mine? It’s tough, but even if I had infinite space in my apartment, these books are nothing more than an artifact of the flawed belief that somehow every moment in life is of profound importance and that it ought to be saved for all eternity. And yet, my reading of Kafka is no more momentous of an occasion than my purchase of apples and coffee at Seven Eleven earlier today.

There is no reason to hold on to stacks of old memories, when life is just short enough to enjoy the process of making new ones.

The History and Future of C-SPAN

Some people are addicted to heroin. Some are addicted to pornography.  Some are alcoholics. Of all the vices one might have, I consider mine to be of the more socially acceptable variety. I am addicted to C-SPAN, NPR, and any other sources of balanced debate and information on current events, history, non-fiction literature, philosophy, science, etc.

Behind every addiction is a tragic flaw. Mine is a kind of manic curiosity about the way the world works. So in that sense, C-SPAN is one of my drug dealers.

The reason I write about it now is that Brian Lamb (founder of C-SPAN) is stepping down from his post as CEO of CSPAN. So why not take this chance to celebrate one of my favorite organizations…

What I like most about CSPAN is the non-political programs such as Book TV. It provides interviews with or presentations by authors of complex and fascinating non-fiction books. The more political programs such as Washington Journal are also interesting. They have a variety of experts (actual ones, not simply pundits) on to discuss the major events of the day. It’s really one of the best methods to get informed in a balanced way about the major happenings of the day.

What I don’t like about the Washington Journal is that they take callers and purposefully are very loose about screening those calls. They don’t just take callers with calm intelligent questions, but they also take the calls that are neither intelligent, well-informed, calm, or even have a question. Even more, some of these people has trouble stringing together words and sentences that make any sense. Some others simply read out talking points they undoubtedly picked up from an ultra-partisan website or radio show. When I listen to Washington Journal, I like to skip over these calls and just listen to the answers, allowing my blood to remain room temperature for the most part.

PS: The tone and style of this blog post reflects not so much my outlook on a life of learning, but the fact that I’ve had several cups of coffee back to back, and believe that this gives me the power to be clever. Denial is a wonderful thing.

Coffee is a Way of Life

Americans consume 400 million cups of coffee per day or 146 billion cups per year. In terms of per capita consumption, Finland, Sweden, Switzerland, Germany, France, Italy, and Brazil has us beat.

The most popular reason that women provide for drinking coffee is “it’s a good way to relax”. On the other hand, men go with the vague but aggressive “it helps get the job done”. That it does.

My own experience with coffee has evolved over the years. Something about the process of drinking coffee, almost just the habit of it, focuses my mind on what I’m doing. It has become part of my comfort zone, a key element of a productive environment. When I smell coffee, my brain goes into the mode of “okay, time to get s*** done”. But “focus” doesn’t just mean focusing on work. I enjoy reading over a hot coffee, thinking about life, and how insanely absurd everything is. It puts my own little problems into perspective and helps me consider the things that really matter in my life.

Of course, the taste of coffee ain’t bad either. I look forward to waking up, making a fresh cup of coffee, and sitting down to eat steel-cut oatmeal while thinking about something I’ve read the night before.

Why Do We Kill?

A former Baltimore homicide detective and a reporter discussed their book Why Do We Kill? on a C-SPAN program.

It’s not clear to me that the authors ever answer the question that is posed in the title of their book: why do we kill? And if they do it’s the smaller pragmatic why’s of commonly known negative social factors of single-parent homes, bad schools, barriers to upward mobility, etc. But perhaps the point is precisely that there is no answer, that violence is as absurd as the murder of the Arab in Camus’s The Stranger. People kill for nothing:

“People kill because they’re angry over a slight. Frustrated over a hard look. Pissed off because somebody talked with their girl. They kill and will kill for nothing.”

Many of the brutal murders described are committed by teenagers, in a matter of fact way. It’s not a fearless anger or revenge that drives these murders. It’s much less dramatic than that. These are kids, stupid ignorant kids, who have no understanding of (and thus no value for) human life. They carry the ultimate responsibility for failing under the immense hopelessness of their environment. But once that is clear, ideas for solutions have to start flowing (along with funding). That’s a tough thing to ask for in this climate of budget ceiling debates.

Recommend a Book, Movie, Album That Affected How You See the World

Last year on my birthday (August 15) I asked people to recommend a book or movie that really made them think, and had an impact on their life. I read about 10-15 of the recommended books, which were excellent. Some of the ones I remember off the top off my head are listed below.

So, again, this year, as a hello/present, I’d love to get a recommendation here (or preferably on my facebook) for a book (or movie or music album) that you read / watched / listened to in the past that really made you think, or even changed the way you view the world. It would mean a lot to me. Thanks guys.

Book recommendations I read from last year (and still remember) are:

  • “Shambhala: Sacred Path of the Warrior”
  • “God Delusion” by Dawkins
  • “Reading Turgenev” by Trevor
  • “The Things They Carried” by Tim O’Brien
  • “All Quiet on the Western Front” (finally)
  • “Down and Out in Paris and London” by Orwell
  • “Ham on Rye” by Bukowski
  • “Cod” by Kurlansky
  • “Catch-22″ (finally)
  • “A Short History of Nearly Everything” by Bryson

There are many book recommendation that I haven’t gotten to but will definitely read soon:

  • “Stalin: Court of the Red Czar”
  • “The Dispossessed: An Ambiguous Utopia”
  • “Zen & the Art of Motorcycle Maintenance”
  • “The Culture Struggle” by Michael Parenti
  • “The Power of One” by Courtenay

And many more that I’m forgetting now, but have it written down at work. Thanks again, it’s remarkable how many intelligent people I know, and also how many exceptional books are out there. Constantly reading, learning, thinking is essential. I believe that a life of inquiry is a life worth living.